you can't always get what you want

it's no secret i've literally been counting the minutes until my husband's return. you'd think after knowing the guy for nearly 19 years, it'd get a little old. but apparently, i can't get enough of him.

so when my phone rang at the ungodly hour of 8:30 am, my heart skipped a beat. and fell.

i didn't hear much after "i'm still in glasgow". disappointment crushing every sense.

but as he explained that a band mate was in trouble, and soon to be hospitalized, the ringing in my ears dissipated, my foggy vision cleared and my heart began to lift...

["you can't always get what you want"]

is there any way to comprehend his part in our journey over the last 2 and a half years? 4 hospitalizations in 2 years, prescription addiction, depression, medical bills...

pretty sexy shit, right?

never once did i ask him not to take this band trip; because, like the 20 different medications i now take daily (i'll get into that later); that is his medicine. the majestic, sublime bagpipes are his blog.

["you can't always get what you want"]

and as tends to happen in life, make a plan, and you'll get laughed out of the room, down the hall and out the door.

i imagine k was hoping the 4000 miles between him and cedars-sinai, would be cushion enough.

[insert knee slap and uproarious laughter here]

not so fast, buddy...first one of our dear friends, our godson's mommy, had that womanly cyst surgery that seems to be plaguing a lot of us recently. and now a younger band member was in need of help.

in case you're counting, that's 2 hospitals in one week...in scotland...

and i wasn't at either one!

["but if you try sometimes you just might find"]

but still, this heart lifted and soared.

maybe this wasn't the "relaxing" trip he wanted and so deserved. but there are all kinds of blessings in life, and sometimes you just gotta roll with it.

i am sure a was touched to have k around.

i am sure d is grateful that k stayed behind.

and i know i am awed by this man, k.

so like the song says...

["you get what you need"]